I have to apologize for waiting so long to post the part 3 to my testimony “Soon to be Four”. There were several reasons for the delay. As many of you know, we have moved out of USA to be able to serve full time in the ministry and focus on our people – the people of physical Israel to come to know Yeshua , their Messiah. This move has been very stressful for me in several ways: loosing many of possessions, learning to live completely by faith without any secular job, homeschooling my two children ( two different grades) while continued deep research in the Bible and be the “cheerleader and true helper” for my husband Steve BenNun in his part of the ministry, as well as being the “main camera woman” in many of the projects we are undertaking.
What is even more of a reason for my delayed post is the fact that some of my Jehovah’s Witness family members discovered my posts and I went through a “living hell” and a new wave of persecution . Those who were ever in a controlling cult will understand the best what I am trying to describe. So I tried for the situation to calm down before I post part 3 to my testimony with the hope that the family members will forget about our site and take a brake from searching it and therefore the ugly threats and persecution would stop – at least temporarily.
Last, but not least, the English Language is my third language and it takes a great amount of effort to be writing anything in English for me, yet with the Grace of G-d of Israel who is my Helper and my Love of my life I will continue to write testimonies and articles in English Language.
Now, enough of “excuses” and here is the part three:
It was July of 2010. The marital separation was always more and more difficult on me and Steve. We loved each other very much, children missed Steve and my concern was that Arielah, our infant 10 month old daughter would never really know her father well enough since he was miles away. Every time my husband came for a visit, we had a great, loving time together and the only thing that prevented us to be together as a family was the fact that elders in North Florida have asked me to separate with Steve as he was a spiritual danger to me and my children.
Still, I believed that this separation was the will of “Jehovah” and that it would help my husband to start studying again with the elders and he would reconsider to convert to my “faith”. I did not realize then, that it was a form of “manipulation” , sort of a punishment , making Steve to suffer, making him to miss his family and children – and therefore force him to convert to the faith of Watchtower. In fact, this request- conversion to my faith- was my” ultimatum” given to Steve for me to return to him as a wife . ( this “forcing” method for relatives to convert to faith is a common practice among Jehovah’s Witnesses. They practice a “shunning” method for relatives, even parents, spouses and their own children” if they do not return to Watchtower, if they are dis fellowshiped, or , if they disagree with any point of the teachings and doctrines of the Watchtower Corporation).
Little did I know then, what Jesus would do for our family and how soon the situation would resolve – and definitely not the way I would have ever imagined.
One day, I have received a phone call from Steve from North Florida, where he has informed me that our business that supported us would soon close. The stress of separation, stretching of finances due to financing of two places ( North and South Florida) have taken its toll. The business was gone, closed. No money would be made to support our family. There was no other choice but for Steve to move to South Florida and start a job there. Under these circumstances I agreed for Steve to move in with us ( I was actually overjoyed and could not wait for him to come), but there was ONE condition:
“We will never speak about the religion, ever! I will continue my faith and activities in the Watchtower Organization and Steve must never protest it . He may never question anything and must never speak about his own faith- to me or to our children”
During the nights , I often thought about why all this had to happen. Steve was with us in South Florida, starting a new business there, I started my studio for piano studies where I acquired many new piano students, we lived very happily, I continued my watchtower activities, educated my own children in the watchtower doctrines and Steve has kept the word- he never said anything, nor prevented me in any way to practice my religion. In South Florida, we never argued about religion. So why did we not agree on this life style in North Florida? Why we had to separate in the first place? Why did we have to loose well paid jobs and business? Could not we still live in North Florida with our jobs and business and just “agree” to “disagree”?
What I did not know at that time, was , that Steve was writing a book in secret- while keeping his word of not discussing a religion with me. In his book ( Israel, are they still God’s people?) he wrote about many doctrinal points of Watchtower Organization and their lies. Also, Steve was going to work every day an hour earlier- he had daily early morning meetings with the group of born again Christians, where they daily, every morning at 6 AM prayed for me, so the Lord would open my heart and my eyes to the truth. I had no idea that all this was going on…
(story to be continued-)