I will be soon FOUR years old- part 2

The next several months had been very difficult on our family. I moved to South Florida with my two little children, Ethan was then five years old and Arielah eight months old. I left behind my work as an owner of private school of music , as a pianist and teacher, my house , my friends and my husband Steve. At this point all I cared for was to protect myself and my children from a certain “spiritual danger” .

With all of my heart I believed that the organization of Jehovah’s Witnesses was infallible and I recognized the men – elders in the congregation of Jehovah’s Witnesses to be my “spiritual heads”, the final authority over me. If they have told me to stand on my head every morning – I would do just that. I was not aware that I was brainwashed and a victim of a dangerous abusive cult.

See, my behavior at that time was typical of any Jehovah’s Witness you meet at your door. Despite the fact that these people smile and claim to be “the happiest people on this Earth”, they are under serious mind control and their allegiance is solely to an organization based in New York (USA) where eight men, the governing body, decide all the doctrines and rules of conduct for each Jehovah’s Witness.

I can only imagine the pain I have caused my husband Steve. One day returning from work, he found our house empty and without his wife and children. To my surprise, Steve continued to show love to me and he worked very hard to support his family. He regularly sent me finances to care for the children and paid my housing in South Florida. Yet , after a few months , the decision to separate from Steve took its toll. As much as my husband tried to keep up the support of two places – one in North Florida where our house was and another one in South Florida where I rented an apartment, our finances were stretched to the limit as I could not work due to increasing stress that lead to deep depression.

I still loved Steve very much and prayed daily to “Jehovah” for restoration of our marriage and conversion of my husband to my faith. Thinking that “Jehovah” would only hear my prayers if I do more for Him, I increased my field service hours – house to house preaching and immersed myself in the doctrines of Watchtower even deeper. I surrounded myself only with the sisters and brothers from the Watchtower Organization where I received a great deal of emotional support .

-to be continued-